Welcome Little Bean!

4 of January 2011 (4 weeks and 4 days)

Hi there Little Bean, (that’s the name daddy and I decided to name you for now because you are very very small) I hope you are doing fine. I’m trying my best for you to grow in a healthy and warm place. Today we discovered that you were there. I was sure that this was not your month that once again I would have my period but I didn’t. I was 4 days late when I had the courage to take that First response test and see if you were really there. I promised myself to wait until the morning before testing and at around 4h40 am I couldn’t wait anymore. After having nightmares of having my period I took the test. I was ready to be disappointed Little Bean, I was ready to only see one line, like all the other times, but this time within 30 seconds, a second line showed up. I couldn’t believe it, I was so happy Little Bean. From that moment on, you made me the happiest mommy ever. When we were waiting for you, I had planned and re-planned a cute way to tell daddy that we were expecting you but I was just so excited that I didn’t want to wait. I rushed to the bedroom and told your dad “Stephen, it’s 4h44 am and I am pregnant!” Poor daddy, he had to start a new job the same day and he was getting up early. He just replied “Congratulations” I’m sure he was happy Little Bean, but he was just so tired. My heart was still pounding so hard and I just couldn’t believe it. 

During the day, I went to the store. I got a few more tests and prenatal vitamins…I also got grandma and grandpa a bib saying “I love grandpa” and “I love grandma.” For Sonia, I got her baby socks. Daddy and I planned on announcing that we were pregnant that night. When daddy got home from work I had a surprise for him. I wrapped the two positive pregnancy tests and gave it to him. I think it made him feel good to know you were really there, that the first test was not defective. It was also good for me to see the positive results. I was blessed to have you. If you only knew how much we prayed, how much we sacrificed, how much we wanted you. I’m sure you will be the happiest little boy or little girl in the world. I’m sure it won’t be easy but just remember that we’ll always love you. That you were not only wanted but also waited for. I’m just happy God finally blessed us with you. You’re already so precious to daddy and me. 

At night, we decided to tell grandpa, grandma and Sonia. I had wrapped their gifts and they opened them all together. It took them a while before understanding it. Grandpa said “I love grandpa? I’m not a grandpa” and that’s when Grandma said “we never know…” and Sonia finally asked “Are you pregnant?” YES!! YES I WAS! Grandpa left, he had a lot on his mind. Grandma and Sonia stayed to congratulate daddy and me. It was a happy night. Grandma was tearing and so was Sonia. Both of them were very excited. Then came the questions. When, planned or not, were we happy, etc. Grandpa was just worried. He was wondering how I’m going to make it. He wonders if I will eventually get my degree or not. He just doesn’t want me to be unhappy. It’s okay Little Bean. Mommy will take care of that. Grandpa will love you more than any other grandpa. You’ll see, he’s great and he can cook very well. He’ll buy you tons of ice creams and take you fishing like he used to do with me. He’s already buying tons of salad, veggies and fruits for me to eat in order to keep you healthy. Grandma is also thrilled. She also worries a bit but in general, I think she can’t wait for you to be here. We talk a lot about you already. We all love you. 

Be safe in there Little Bean,

Mommy