First week home

12^th of October 2011 (2 weeks and 3 days)

Hi Baby Noah,

I wanted to take some time while you were sleeping in my arms to tell you how precious you are to us. You were so wanted and waited for that to have you here with us sounds like a miracle. I’m pretty sure that’s what you are, our little miracle. Daddy and I are cherishing every moment we spend with you. We can’t wait for you to be older and to actually talk to us but at the same time, you’ve already grown so much since birth and I feel like time is running by us. So, we are taking a minute at a time and enjoying what life has given us. 

A few words about your first two weeks; we spent 3 nights at the hospital. The night you were born, no one slept. I didn’t really consider that a “night” per say. You were born at 1h14am and we were still up at 4 am. Mommy had a caesarean cut, so she couldn’t get up to pick you up. Grandma or daddy would be the ones who would have to take you when you cried and give you to me. That was hard for me. I felt that I couldn’t really do much except breastfeed you. I wanted to get up, take you and swaddle you but I couldn’t. The second night was fine. We had visitors during the day and everyone kept telling us how adorable you were. Daddy and I were thrilled but really really tired. The third night was our last night at the hospital. You were losing too much weight and nurses were putting too much stress on Mommy to breastfeed you more when inside of me I knew you would be fine. We came home. As much as at the hospital you had a perfect sleeping pattern, once you got home things got complicated. Mommy had much more milk and you drank very often. We were up a lot during the night and it wasn’t fun for either of us. Thank goodness that Daddy took a week off, Mommy couldn’t have done it without him. You also decided that sleeping wasn’t too much your thing. You preferred to stay up and cry. To be honest with you, that was fine when Daddy was not working but once he started work again, we didn’t appreciate it that much. We were both tired and we couldn’t stand it anymore. I didn’t expect it to be this exhausting and hard. 

Our schedule at night was something like this; you would wake up, daddy would change your diaper, Mommy would feed you, we would spend 2 hours to put you back to bed. You would fall asleep, we would sleep, you would wake up a few minutes later. We would then repeat the schedule. Ex.hau.sting. Feeding you was also not great at first. Mommy felt like giving up a couple of times. You weren’t gaining enough weight at first. Nurses wanted me to supplement breastmilk with formula and I didn’t want to. Mommy ended up having LOTS of milk to feed you. So the hard part was to feed you at every hour or so. With time it got better. You started to sleep a bit more at night. 

You’re not always an easy baby to deal with but we want you to know that we love you and we would do anything for you. You’re just so special to us and we feel blessed to have you in our life. So keep growing. We’ll keep loving you and be there for you.